Stillness

is impossible for me. I keep trying, breathing, meditating. I think too much. Say too much.

I'm venturing out, last two Friday's or maybe three, solo date night. It's getting a little easier. Still feels awkward though.

I have some very good friends. But still no one I can say anything to uncensored. It would be nice to hold hands or have an arm around my shoulder.

I have 5 days off work, maybe I can find the stillness I require. Increase the love within and share it - get what you give, right?