the family disentegrate into pieces. I can work the logic, rationalize all that's happened. It does no good to reach out if. no one takes your hand. To send an invitation that is declined. To leave a voice mail that's never answered. Or have all communication relegated to the written word.
Families from my perspective should make time for each other, reach out to each other. Hell, I've made trips to front porches and had to call before my family member knew I was outside. Time is moving on and so are the people in my family.
I can't put it together. I don't have the right glue. I keep saying I'm going to stop trying. To let it happen. To not let it bother me. To walk away.
but i can't make it stop hurting