I know that vanity is bad in so many ways. When something happens to make you realise how vain you are, hopefully you can deal with it in a humorous way.
I know this had to do with Karma. I was a bit full of myself (last post) when I found out that I had lost 17 pounds and boasted more than I should've. So, I'm sitting on a global call Tuesday morning eating my ritual bagel for breakfast. With two bites left, my left front bridge (contains 3 crowns) falls out of my mouth. Now, it couldn't be one tooth (crown) but 3. Following my call I walk to CVS and buy some temporary dental cement. This lasts until about 5:00, when I am at my sister's house sitting on the front porch visiting. Then the temporary stuff lets go. I asked her if she wanted to see. She cringed and said no, that it must hurt. I said no, but I definitely look like a hill-billy from Appalachia. Then I showed her anyway. She laughed and said that it would be great for Halloween!
I got into the dentist this morning and he put everything back where it belongs. I still have this fear this will happen again. It's the 2nd time so far. More worried if it was in a professional situation with clients than if it was a personal event, though.
You know, we have to be able to laugh at ourselves. Laughter helps us get through so many trying times!
18 October, 2007
15 October, 2007
Funny thing about doctors
I've never seen this one smile. I've tried over the years, just couldn't seem to get him to smile. I pride myself on being able to do that with people. I completely understand why. He is serious about what he does.
Today he smiled. He was reading my profile and said, "this is different it says Smoking - No". I answered with a "yes, this is true. Tonight when I go to bed will be 12 weeks. It's all due to the Chantix, and the 3 breathing tests over 2 years you conducted. But it still took me 3 months to decide to quit since then." Then he said, "you've lost weight since April". I explained, "I've been exercising since before I quit. First on the stationary bike and now on the open road. I've also begun trying to run, though I've still not put together a full mile without walking, yet. What I would like to do is run the 5K next spring." He smiles, and says that his favorite is the City Run, it's 6 miles, twice the 5k, that I should aspire to that one. I protest, though without much conviction, saying that patience isn't my strong point. I think I need to set smaller goals to get to the big ones. I don't want to discourage myself before I get there! He explains that there is plenty of time, almost 6 months to get ready, plenty of time.
I asked about a breathing test and he said to wait until April. I asked about cutting back on my dosage of Advair, again wait until April and see the results of the breathing test. All in good time. He wants me to cut back, too. Just need to be prudent about it.
Okay, big deep breaths. Keep setting these goals, small ones lead to bigger ones. Not sure I will ever be a triathlete or anything that Ulta, but who knows for sure. One day at a time. That's what I've decided about not smoking. One day at a time. I know I can do some bigger things, if I stay healthy. I just need to stay healthy. Be smart. Get my checkups, exercise, eat right, pay attention to what my body tells me.
I know I could die tomorrow. Get hit by a bus crossing the street or slam into a deer in the wee hours of the morning during my commute. But if I'm lucky enough to live a few more years, I want to feel alive and healthy. Not tired and old, full of aches and pains.
Now, I guess I'll bore everyone with more stats on training. Riding the bike, running the miles and maybe snapping some nice pics along the way. This training is for my golden years. I want to experience so many things!
Til next time - Be good - Give only good - and Try to commit a random act of kindness each day. I swear it will come back in so many more ways!
Today he smiled. He was reading my profile and said, "this is different it says Smoking - No". I answered with a "yes, this is true. Tonight when I go to bed will be 12 weeks. It's all due to the Chantix, and the 3 breathing tests over 2 years you conducted. But it still took me 3 months to decide to quit since then." Then he said, "you've lost weight since April". I explained, "I've been exercising since before I quit. First on the stationary bike and now on the open road. I've also begun trying to run, though I've still not put together a full mile without walking, yet. What I would like to do is run the 5K next spring." He smiles, and says that his favorite is the City Run, it's 6 miles, twice the 5k, that I should aspire to that one. I protest, though without much conviction, saying that patience isn't my strong point. I think I need to set smaller goals to get to the big ones. I don't want to discourage myself before I get there! He explains that there is plenty of time, almost 6 months to get ready, plenty of time.
I asked about a breathing test and he said to wait until April. I asked about cutting back on my dosage of Advair, again wait until April and see the results of the breathing test. All in good time. He wants me to cut back, too. Just need to be prudent about it.
Okay, big deep breaths. Keep setting these goals, small ones lead to bigger ones. Not sure I will ever be a triathlete or anything that Ulta, but who knows for sure. One day at a time. That's what I've decided about not smoking. One day at a time. I know I can do some bigger things, if I stay healthy. I just need to stay healthy. Be smart. Get my checkups, exercise, eat right, pay attention to what my body tells me.
I know I could die tomorrow. Get hit by a bus crossing the street or slam into a deer in the wee hours of the morning during my commute. But if I'm lucky enough to live a few more years, I want to feel alive and healthy. Not tired and old, full of aches and pains.
Now, I guess I'll bore everyone with more stats on training. Riding the bike, running the miles and maybe snapping some nice pics along the way. This training is for my golden years. I want to experience so many things!
Til next time - Be good - Give only good - and Try to commit a random act of kindness each day. I swear it will come back in so many more ways!
14 October, 2007
Excited, apprehensive, and happy!
Okay, so the swelling is gone. Hallelujah! Still the slightest bit of tenderness, but I'll live. So I rode my bike 2 laps in the subdivision yesterday, which is about a mile and a half. Decided I should go easy after this past week. All day yesterday I had this 'cold' between my shoulder blades. I know it's just gunk in my lungs trying to come out. I stayed up too late for this ole lady. UofL football didn't go off til 11pm. Didn't want to get up this morning, slept til 7.
Had a nice easy morning. Went out on the bike after lunch. Rode down Whitfield Lane to the point I know the mileage. On the way back, turned into a friend's neighborhood and wound around a bit. Then decided to head back towards Whitfield. Stayed on King's Church Road and rode into Spencer County a ways, turned around and came back to the house. I was slow, never happy about that, but considering it's been about 10 days since I'd ridden, shouldn't complain. Rode 6.1 miles in 26 minutes. Temp was 76F and sunny day. I wouldn't complain if it was a bit cooler, but so nice compared to the 90s we've had thru August and September. I went back out at 5, did 1.5 miles in 7.5 minutes (slow!) then did 35 jjacks, 25 core builders, and 20 pushups (from knees butt flat). Probably shouldn't done the jjacks, but ankle seems to be fine.
Tomorrow, I go to the Pulmonary Doctor. It's been 6 months since I saw him. I'll be 3 months tobacco free. I'm anxious, but hoping it's all good. A friend of mine does voluntary testing with a university around breathing, asthma and oxygen levels with high levels of exercise. I think I'll ask the doc about this and see if UofL has any interest in another volunteer with asthma, reformed smoker that is trying to get fit.
I'm anxious about the scales, to see what my total weight loss is. I need to be realistic and not get too disappointed that it's not lower. Muscle does weigh more than fat. I do not intend to obsess about weight. My clothes are getting too big, that in itself it a huge encouragement.
I'll update you tomorrow, once back from the doc.
Had a nice easy morning. Went out on the bike after lunch. Rode down Whitfield Lane to the point I know the mileage. On the way back, turned into a friend's neighborhood and wound around a bit. Then decided to head back towards Whitfield. Stayed on King's Church Road and rode into Spencer County a ways, turned around and came back to the house. I was slow, never happy about that, but considering it's been about 10 days since I'd ridden, shouldn't complain. Rode 6.1 miles in 26 minutes. Temp was 76F and sunny day. I wouldn't complain if it was a bit cooler, but so nice compared to the 90s we've had thru August and September. I went back out at 5, did 1.5 miles in 7.5 minutes (slow!) then did 35 jjacks, 25 core builders, and 20 pushups (from knees butt flat). Probably shouldn't done the jjacks, but ankle seems to be fine.
Tomorrow, I go to the Pulmonary Doctor. It's been 6 months since I saw him. I'll be 3 months tobacco free. I'm anxious, but hoping it's all good. A friend of mine does voluntary testing with a university around breathing, asthma and oxygen levels with high levels of exercise. I think I'll ask the doc about this and see if UofL has any interest in another volunteer with asthma, reformed smoker that is trying to get fit.
I'm anxious about the scales, to see what my total weight loss is. I need to be realistic and not get too disappointed that it's not lower. Muscle does weigh more than fat. I do not intend to obsess about weight. My clothes are getting too big, that in itself it a huge encouragement.
I'll update you tomorrow, once back from the doc.
13 October, 2007
What a trying time for me!
First week of October was so good with exercise. Had a great run/walk on Thursday. Only bad thing was the heat, which kept me from riding the bike. Friday my left ankle began swelling and I took Friday and Saturday off, 'cause the swelling was still there and tender. Sunday I went to the HS track and ran/walked 1.5 miles. I cried through the first lap. I actually ran 3/4 of the first 2 laps and other than the pain in my left foot/ankle I felt good. Started wishing I'd pushed two more laps, but looking back glad I didn't.
Monday morning the swelling was still there. I took my new running shoes back to the store. This place specialises in running gear and takes pains with their clients. They put you on a treadmill and video how you walk/run with different makes/models of shoes. The pair I returned was not correcting my stance enough. This was putting pressure on the inside of my knees and ankles. I'm flat footed. The sales guy took his time with me and videoed me in the first pair I was bringing back. Showed how they weren't doing what I needed. We tried several pairs and videoed each one. We made a selection, they replaced my shoes and I got a refund to boot! The first pair cost $135, the second pair only $95 (that's weird saying only to 95).
Thinking this was my only problem, I woke early on Tuesday and left for downtown about 5:15. Began my run/walk to the waterfront about 6. First block was tender, but I ran 2 before walking a block. I did this several times all the way to the waterfront. Coming back, I walked more than ran. Too much swelling and pain in my left foot/ankle.
My boss flew into town this week and I sat in meetings most of Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Keeping my foot elevated when I could. This whole time I didn't get on my bike either. Friday was an intense morning that began at 7:30 with the first meeting. Then an hour and a half call. Once I got back from lunch, wrapped up some email, I decided to head home and finish the day there. (I'd put in 11 hours on Thursday.)
My foot was bothering me bad enough when I got home, I got back in the car and went to the Immediate Care Center. Glad I did. They x-rayed my foot and ankle. Nothing broken or fractured, no arthritis, etc. Whew, was I relieved. She said I could start to ride as soon as the swelling subsided. I got up this morning and it was doing very well. I went out on the bike for 2 laps in the subdivision. Didn't want to push too hard. My arch feels tender, the swelling seems to be almost nonexistent. I was so slow! I'm getting out tomorrow and putting in at least 4 miles, hopefully 7. I want to sweat! I want to be fit. I want to set some bigger goals for springtime.
I go to the pulmonary doc on Monday. I already know I've lost more than 10 pounds since April. My blood pressure was 102 over 64 yesterday. Now to see what he says about lungs and breathing. I'm hoping we'll do another breathing test. Not that I expect any huge improvement. Mostly to get a baseline from non smoking between now and April.
Apologies for the novella! Seems I've not posted much recently.
Monday morning the swelling was still there. I took my new running shoes back to the store. This place specialises in running gear and takes pains with their clients. They put you on a treadmill and video how you walk/run with different makes/models of shoes. The pair I returned was not correcting my stance enough. This was putting pressure on the inside of my knees and ankles. I'm flat footed. The sales guy took his time with me and videoed me in the first pair I was bringing back. Showed how they weren't doing what I needed. We tried several pairs and videoed each one. We made a selection, they replaced my shoes and I got a refund to boot! The first pair cost $135, the second pair only $95 (that's weird saying only to 95).
Thinking this was my only problem, I woke early on Tuesday and left for downtown about 5:15. Began my run/walk to the waterfront about 6. First block was tender, but I ran 2 before walking a block. I did this several times all the way to the waterfront. Coming back, I walked more than ran. Too much swelling and pain in my left foot/ankle.
My boss flew into town this week and I sat in meetings most of Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Keeping my foot elevated when I could. This whole time I didn't get on my bike either. Friday was an intense morning that began at 7:30 with the first meeting. Then an hour and a half call. Once I got back from lunch, wrapped up some email, I decided to head home and finish the day there. (I'd put in 11 hours on Thursday.)
My foot was bothering me bad enough when I got home, I got back in the car and went to the Immediate Care Center. Glad I did. They x-rayed my foot and ankle. Nothing broken or fractured, no arthritis, etc. Whew, was I relieved. She said I could start to ride as soon as the swelling subsided. I got up this morning and it was doing very well. I went out on the bike for 2 laps in the subdivision. Didn't want to push too hard. My arch feels tender, the swelling seems to be almost nonexistent. I was so slow! I'm getting out tomorrow and putting in at least 4 miles, hopefully 7. I want to sweat! I want to be fit. I want to set some bigger goals for springtime.
I go to the pulmonary doc on Monday. I already know I've lost more than 10 pounds since April. My blood pressure was 102 over 64 yesterday. Now to see what he says about lungs and breathing. I'm hoping we'll do another breathing test. Not that I expect any huge improvement. Mostly to get a baseline from non smoking between now and April.
Apologies for the novella! Seems I've not posted much recently.
11 October, 2007
Still tobacco free - but annoyed with myself
It was eleven weeks of tobacco freeness when I went to bed Monday night. I want to stop counting, but can't yet. I've tried very hard to refocus all of the bad habit energy and start living a healthy lifestyle.
I've done something to my left leg and haven't been able to sweat and workout like I have been. It's driving me nuts! I am so afraid I will get complacent! Is this my addictive personality? I don't care. I want to be fit. I want to be healthy. I want to get outside and ride.
Patience is not my strong point.
I walked the block today. More swelling. Damn it!
I've done something to my left leg and haven't been able to sweat and workout like I have been. It's driving me nuts! I am so afraid I will get complacent! Is this my addictive personality? I don't care. I want to be fit. I want to be healthy. I want to get outside and ride.
Patience is not my strong point.
I walked the block today. More swelling. Damn it!
06 October, 2007
Random thoughts on a random day
If given a choice and you must give up one sense, which would it be? Sight or hearing? Most would keep sight over hearing. I understand that, but would keep my hearing over sight. I wouldn't want to give up listening to music, birds sing, breeze rustle through leaves, children laughing.
Are you satisfied with your life and accomplishments? I'm not and hope I'm never satisfied. I need a challenge, a reason to rise each morning. I want to experience, do things, see places most only dream of. I'm fortunate, I've done so much already. I've visited some very exotic places. But I have more on my list!
If I were to die tomorrow, would I have regrets? This answer changes a lot on some small levels, but overall I must answer no. I have had a wonderful life to date. My marriage has been almost a lifelong classroom in itself, and I am still discovering things that surprise me. One is that sometimes I really don't like him very much. This makes me sad.
I have 2 beautiful daughters, they are full of compassion, talent, wit. I devoted many years to my girls. I spent a lot of time taking children places, learning with them, seening new things. The best way to see something new is with a child, through their eyes and mind.
I want to expand my circle of friends. I want to deepen some of the relationships I've begun. I want to grow my understanding of things that are different from me and my culture.
Abraham Lincoln:
And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Are you satisfied with your life and accomplishments? I'm not and hope I'm never satisfied. I need a challenge, a reason to rise each morning. I want to experience, do things, see places most only dream of. I'm fortunate, I've done so much already. I've visited some very exotic places. But I have more on my list!
If I were to die tomorrow, would I have regrets? This answer changes a lot on some small levels, but overall I must answer no. I have had a wonderful life to date. My marriage has been almost a lifelong classroom in itself, and I am still discovering things that surprise me. One is that sometimes I really don't like him very much. This makes me sad.
I have 2 beautiful daughters, they are full of compassion, talent, wit. I devoted many years to my girls. I spent a lot of time taking children places, learning with them, seening new things. The best way to see something new is with a child, through their eyes and mind.
I want to expand my circle of friends. I want to deepen some of the relationships I've begun. I want to grow my understanding of things that are different from me and my culture.
Abraham Lincoln:
And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
03 October, 2007
Time to refocus
I feel scattered. I think some of this is hormonal maybe. I can't blame it on smoking cessation or the side affects of Chantix, it's been too long without either one.
I had a terrible night on Monday. It was fitful and finally about 2:30 I got up and went to the couch in the basement so my tossing and turning wouldn't wake hubby. I didn't sleep more than 15 minutes after that. I just can't survive on 4 hours sleep. I know people that thrive on that much sleep. My goal was to get downtown to do my run/walk by 6am, get in 25 minutes, shower, and get on my 7 am call. If you don't sleep well, don't try to do anything physical. I just didn't have it and then hated myself for bothering.
Odd, the rest of the day was fairly productive and worked until 6pm. Nice 10.5 hour in the office.
I've been trying to get my girls together for dinner on a Tuesday night (supposedly best one for all) for 3 weeks. It's not gonna happen. I wound up going shopping by myself. I hate to shop, but need some clothes. My quit buddy told me about a sale, so I went. I was so happy when I tried on 3 skirts that were all too big. I went back for size 8, but only one style had an 8. That's okay! Not sure 8 is where I'll stop. Tried on my new duds for hubby, he noted that the skirt is loose. That is so cool! I know it's bad to brag, but I couldn't contain myself and called my sis and my bff quit buddy.
So, I got a nice night's sleep last night. Didn't want to get up. Worked remotely today. Have so much to do and I'm so far behind. (note topic above: lack of focus).
I did get on the bike twice. 4 miles in about 13-14 minutes and then 3.2 miles in 12. Now to put 7 or 8 together in one ride. Hoping I get a good night's sleep tonight so I can get a run/walk in the morning. Makes for such a good day and clearer mind.
Back to work.
I had a terrible night on Monday. It was fitful and finally about 2:30 I got up and went to the couch in the basement so my tossing and turning wouldn't wake hubby. I didn't sleep more than 15 minutes after that. I just can't survive on 4 hours sleep. I know people that thrive on that much sleep. My goal was to get downtown to do my run/walk by 6am, get in 25 minutes, shower, and get on my 7 am call. If you don't sleep well, don't try to do anything physical. I just didn't have it and then hated myself for bothering.
Odd, the rest of the day was fairly productive and worked until 6pm. Nice 10.5 hour in the office.
I've been trying to get my girls together for dinner on a Tuesday night (supposedly best one for all) for 3 weeks. It's not gonna happen. I wound up going shopping by myself. I hate to shop, but need some clothes. My quit buddy told me about a sale, so I went. I was so happy when I tried on 3 skirts that were all too big. I went back for size 8, but only one style had an 8. That's okay! Not sure 8 is where I'll stop. Tried on my new duds for hubby, he noted that the skirt is loose. That is so cool! I know it's bad to brag, but I couldn't contain myself and called my sis and my bff quit buddy.
So, I got a nice night's sleep last night. Didn't want to get up. Worked remotely today. Have so much to do and I'm so far behind. (note topic above: lack of focus).
I did get on the bike twice. 4 miles in about 13-14 minutes and then 3.2 miles in 12. Now to put 7 or 8 together in one ride. Hoping I get a good night's sleep tonight so I can get a run/walk in the morning. Makes for such a good day and clearer mind.
Back to work.
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